right now, I ffeel better than I have for nearly a week.

I would like to extend a huge vote of thanks to the pharmaceutical industry, and to my GP, for giving me access to meratndol forte. Equal thanks to the Othipaedic Physiotherapists at St Vincent's Hospital, to Bill the Masseur, and to Crusher who all in their various ways help mobilize & stabilize my body.

I am lying on the sofa, and I'm not in pain. I only realized how much pain I was in last night, when it took a 2nd tab to get me settled for sleep. It's been a grinding pAin throughout my R side. Now it's gone - as long as I keep the pain meds up. You betcha.

My inability to recognize pain until it goes away actually scares me. I wonder why I feel dazed & confused & tired & cranky & cold all the time & nauseated. Then someone like my shrink says, "Hmmmm maybe chronic pain? Take a pill & see". Maybe that's why I get migraine? 'Cause I can't always tell when I'm overloading my circuitry?

So right now I'm grateful & almost weepy & looking forward to a long refreshing sleep tonight.

I wish all of you a wonderful evening also. Do something nice for yourself & really notice what it feels like.

Monday night I went to bed with a migraine, so I took a half an endone. Slept soundly for 7 hours. Last night I took a half an endone and slept for 8 hours - minus a quick trip to the loo. Today I'm ridiculously tired as my body begins to catch up on its sleep defecit. As it has been more than a fortnight since my last strong drugs, I doubt I will become a drug addict.

Walking up the hill from work last night, I wondered why I felt so happy. I realised it's because I wasn't in pain.

I'm going to watch 'Moonlight' and then take some drugs and go to bed. And I'll likely sleep and all.